Jesse Lee Williams

Hi Jesse,

Another fishing year without you, how it hurts.  But maybe you are fishing up there.  Grampa goes into the shed and looks at all your fishing gear and wishes you were here to use it.  We miss you more than you will ever know.  The star is shining brightly in our memory garden for you Jesse.  Wish we could turn back the time when you were with us enjoying all the good times.  Nothing will ever be the same until we meet again.  Love You Jesse and how it hurts to face each day without you.

Love,

Gramma 

Jesse,

     Today marks two years that you moved back to N.Y..  Amaya was so excited that afternoon both of you gathered up your belongings.  Leaving many things behind, you would be back for everything else around Easter.

     Instead Jesse we cherish all the things you left at Gandma & Grandpa's for that is all we have.  We miss you so very much.  We have the most important things too...your memories they are what I hold in my heart forever. 

     I Love You Jesse.

Love,

Aunt Chris

P.S.

Watch over your Mom.  I know this coming month will be the hardest.

Dear Jesse,

Can't believe it will be five years ago tomorrow that we all celebrated the birth of your beautiful daughter Amaya!  How thrilled and happy you were and we were all just as excited as we stopped to shop for some gifts and make the trip to New York to see her.  I can still picture you holding Amaya in your arms and kissing her.  The last three months of your life you spoke of all the plans and hope you had for Amaya.  I still don't understand why God took you from us at such an early age.  We had a lot planned for the future and the rug was pulled out beneath us.  Still missing you more than you will ever know.  Sending all my love.  How I miss the hugs, laughter and love you gave to all of us.

Broken Heart,

Gramma

Jesse,

I see your Mom has changed your main page for your web site.  I know you'd appreciate what she has written.  You must have pointed out your bumper sticker to all your friends and I'm sure they were all remember that yesterday.  I remember when you pointed it out to me, you had such a big smile on your face.  I guess a lot of people are hoping for change.  I really wish you were here.

Love,

Aunt Wendy 

Jesse,

   It just doesn't seem possible, but it has been two years since we went Christmas shopping together.  You wanted to get Amaya's gifts.  We went to the Enfield Mall.  I had a good time watching you decide what you wanted for your daughter.  You chose Sponge Bob P.J.'s and a Cabbage Patch Baby named Harley. 

   Amaya just loved her gifts she immediately put the P.J.'s on and carried her baby around all night.  

   How were we to know that would be the last Christmas we would share together.  It brings my heart great sorrow everytime I think about how I won't ever be able to share that happiness with you ever again.  I go into your bedroom you had at Grandma & Grandpa's and I see the baby doll named Harley sitting on your bed.  I want to go back to that day you bought her, when things were O.K.   I don't want to be without you every holiday or birthdays or family gatherings.  I miss visiting you or you visiting us.  You made people feel good whenever you would see us.  Always with a hug and kiss and you gave a person the feeling that they mattered.  I wonder if you knew just how much you mattered to us.  Do you know how much people love you.

   It is a struggle for us especially your Mom.  All we can do is to try and help each other each and everyday to get through.  But our hearts don't feel any less pain.  We know you are around us.  We think of the Christmas's we did have with you which we keep in our hearts.  You are missed Jesse Lee.

Love,

Aunt Chris

Our DearJesse,

How we miss you.  This time of the year is very hard for all of us without your presence.  How we all enjoyed the holidays together.  I especially remember the last Christmas you had with us, you were so happy with your little girl Amaya opening her presents and playing with her.  It is one very important time along with a lot of others that we will never forget.  Wish you were still here.  Also Jesse we can't help but remember your last New Year's Eve when we all had lobster and steak, how you enjoyed it.  You were even able to get a second lobster.  How could such a tragic loss happen to us when we thought we were bringing the New Year of 2007 in with so much joy and happiness.  It is one year that I wished never came.  We will have to hang onto all the memories and good times we have shared.  If you only knew how much your Aunts, Uncles, & Cousins miss and talk about the good times we had with you every day, some thoughts make us laugh but we also shed a lot of tears.  We have your star shining  brightly in our memory garden for you.  Until we meet again sending lots of love and want you to know the hurt will never go away.

Love,

Gram & Grampa

 With a Lot of heartache 

Jesse,

Another Thanksgiving without you.  There was an empty chair between Maureen and I where you would have sat.  No one could ever fill your place.  OH HOW WE MISS YOU JESSE!!!!

MUCH LOVE,

Aunt Chris, Uncle Ken

Chet, Melissa & Phil

Jesse,

I remember all the Thanksgivings our families have shared.  We could always count on you to add to the excitement.  It is so hard to have that empty space.  We said our blessings & thanks around the table.  We were all thinking of you.  Many specifically gave Thanks for our time with you, and all gave Thanks in our hearts for you.  

Love,

Aunt Wendy, Uncle Gary, & Keith 

Jesse,

I remember two years ago when you and I went shopping for turkeys for Thanksgiving.  We were able to get a 30 pounder and another one that was about 27 pounds.  While I haven't been able to get one that big now, I got a 25 pound and another almost 25 pounds.  I remember all the fun and good times we had getting ready for Thanksgiving.  I can still picture you standing by the stove as Gramp was carving the turkey Thanksgiving day and taking a piece and putting it in the gravy I was making and telling me how good the gravy was.  Those were the good times, you got so excited when Mom and Dan showed up and knew they were staying for a few days.  You always got Mom to take you shopping and buy you a lot of expensive things that you liked, but she sure enjoyed it also.  While I guess we just have to hang onto the memories you have left behind for us.  Some day we will all be having Thanksgiving together again . Love and Miss you more than you will ever know!!

Love,

Gram

(With a Shattered Heart and Many Tears)

Jesse,

  I wrote this on your birthday but I was so mad and sad I couldn't put it on until now. 

  Today is your birthday.  September 22 will always be your birthday and we will always celebrate your birth.  Some of the things we do like we would if you were here...we all gather together in your honor.  

  We all want to see you: to sit beside you: to hug & kiss you.  We watch old video's of your birthday's...now can see you. We feel the joy in our hearts like we felt that day on your birthday.  We watched a video of your second birthday and when you blew out the candles you used your nose...you made us laugh so hard.

Love Ya Lots & Lots,

Aunt Wendy

Jesse,

    Your birthday has come and gone.  You would have been 23 years old on 9/22/08.  Its been 18 months since you left us all.  The devastation that our family has gone through and continues to go through over you death is just so difficult.  Who would have thought the beautiful young man you had become would be taken from us at age 21.  You brought so much happiness into our lives that will bever be forgotton.  Your Love you gave us was unconditional.  As is the Love we have for you.

     You were a beautiful boy who grew into a handsome young man.  You had the most amazing brown eyes.  Jesse you had a lot to deal with in your life and dealt with it the best you could.  I admired you for that.  Jesse even though you were dealing with so many difficult things you would always make us feel welcome whenever we would see you.  And you would always show your Love and affection.  I miss that so much Jesse.  You were the best!!! I Love You with all my heart.

Love,

Aunt Chris

Your 23rd bithday was bittersweet.  I know that you are always near and again you proved it to us when we were at the Big E.  There were butterflies many times during the day . . . .I know it is your sign that you are still with us. 

Aunt Chris, Uncle Kenny, Chet, Melissa, Dan and I spend many hours walking the same ground that you walked so many years celebrating your Birthday.  We played the "Birthday Game" and as Aunt Chris and I knew September came up!!!!  We both won choice of the stand but our choice really would have been to have you back.  We had to settle for stuffed cuddly animals instead.

Until we celebrate with you again.  Baby boy I miss you and will never forget all of who you were.  The good the bad the loveable and everything inbetween.  Missing you.

Love your Momma

We Love & Miss You Everyday

Jesse,

Today would have been your 23rd birthday.  Your Mom and Dan came down and treated everyone that was there to grinders and pizza.  We even had your favorite krazy cake.   We set up a memorial in the backyard with your picture on a bill board, two bales of hay,  corn stalks, flowers, your flag, an empty milk bottle found in the only truck you owned and of course a bottle that had beer in it.  Grampa put a light shining on it and  Aunt Chris put a lit candle on one of the bales of hay so it would be lit up all night long and we will leave it on until your birthday is over.   Last night we all watched movies of your first birthday and a lot of other events as you were growing up.  We even saw you dressed as bat man with your mom going out to trick or treat when you lived in Bangor, Maine. Aunt Wendy & Aunt Chris made a scrap book for your Mom of all the good times you shared with us including the beach, riding a cow over at Uncle Kenny's, Cadillac Mountain, your first birthday, parties at Aunt Chris & Uncle Kenny's, riding motorcycle with Uncle Gary, and so many fun things you did growing up when Aunt Chris baby sat for you.  Also pictures of Aunt Maryann and Uncle Ron fun things with you.  Jesse, just wish you were here with us, so hard for us to bear without you.  But we do remember all the hugs, kisses, funny things you used to do, great card games and the love you left behind.  Those were the good times we will have to hang onto until we all meet again.  Have a Happy Birthday in Heaven and I hope you know how much we LOVE YOU and MISS YOU!!!

Love,

Gramma & Grampa

(With Many Tears)